Came through somebody saying, "What are you gonna be? The Diamond that doesn't crack under pressure or The rock that crushes under pressure?".
Interesting.
Been quite a ride this 2015 year. Not only in my career as a paintball athlete, but also my life in general. At the beginning of the year I had a commitment and goal to achieve more than the 2014 year. I put out a program and initiated it. Double Barrel Effect, was finally born. The program was for a full 2015 season, to make as many podiums and tournament wins. I mean, by the end of the day, it is the ultimate goal to WIN.
The program started great, I could say that every member always took podium and even a tournament win in any tournament they enter. As the season become more longer, there was a lack of focus or maybe motivation or maybe a complacent behavior growing. Maybe not in one person but maybe all of us. There were cockiness, doubts, miss practices, even no shows. And that showed in the first tournament we missed, as players, the podium. To me it was a step backwards and it hurt.
I was stressed. The thing is, I kept thinking maybe it was me that's the problem. Was I doing this wrong? Was there a lesson I missed? Were there no more motivation? All the problems being impacted in one cycle of motion. The pressure was felt deeply.
And that pressure doubled when I missed Sunday for the first time in many years at Paintball World Cup Asia 2015.
So, now the last tournament of the year that we have planned is just around the corner. SOPL last leg at my home field, Magnum Paintball on the 12th and 13th of December 2015. Yet, I sprained my MCL last weekend playing some games at the field. My movement is pretty limited, where I can't pretty much do any dynamic moves. The pressure is mounting up, and I'm feeling it.
The question remains, Will you be the diamond that doesn't crack from the pressure, or will you be the rock that cracks under pressure?
Ali bin Abi Thalib once said :"Do not let your difficulties fill you with anxiety, after all it is only in the darkest nights that stars shine more brightly."
Dany Sitompul #07
DOUBLE BARREL EFFECT
